Do you ever wonder what it would be like if you could just be you? Would it be easier than being the faded version of the person that exists deep inside of you?
There are times that I wonder if I will ever truly be me again, simply because there are few people who understand who I really am.
I know that all sounds really messed up, but it is difficult to express it any other way. For many years now, I have suppressed the part of me that makes me feel alive and connected because it disconnects me from others. People freak out when I become the deeply sensitive, imaginative, child-like person that I am. It’s like they fear breaking me, yet it feels like I am breaking them.
Maybe things cannot be fixed until they are broken….maybe sometimes things are just meant to be broken…
Who ever really knows?